so yea i always forget about this thing!!

today was a sad day. my best friend kristin lost her mother in law. Heidi was a pretty great lady. may she RIP. i wish i could take all her hurt away. all the tears and make it ok for her. this was to early she shouldn't have left this world yet. i will miss you momma heidi !

on another note. i leave to move home at the end of this month and should be there june 8th or 9th. i am so excited. i need to be near my family. its been to long. and with what happened today it makes it that much cleared where i belong.

i hope everyone is doing well. hug your parents hug your kids hug your spouse. hug your friends. tell everyone you love what they mean to you. you never know when it will be your last.

apple cheesecake pie

  Prep Time: 1 hrs Cook Time: 40 min

Yield: 8 servings 

CRUST
Double Crust	Classic Crisco Pie Crust
CHEESECAKE FILLING
1 (8 oz.)	package cream cheese, softened
1/3	cup sugar
1	large egg
1	tablespoon apple juice
1/2	teaspoon vanilla extract
APPLE FILLING
1/2	cup sugar
1	tablespoon cornstarch
1/2	teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/4	teaspoon salt
6	cups peeled, cored, sliced Jonathon or Granny Smith apples (about 2 lbs. or 4 large)
2	tablespoons butter

1.	PREPARE recipe for double crust pie. Roll out dough for bottom crust. Place in 9-inch pie plate. Press to fit without stretching dough. Trim even with pie plate. Heat oven to 375°F.
2.	COMBINE cream cheese, 1/3 cup sugar, egg, apple juice and vanilla in small bowl. Beat with electric mixer on medium speed until creamy. Spread evenly in unbaked pie crust.
3.	COMBINE 1/2 cup sugar, cornstarch, cinnamon and salt in small bowl. Place apple slices in large bowl. Sprinkle with sugar mixture and toss to coat. Spoon over cheesecake filling in pie crust. Moisten pastry edge with water.
4.	ROLL out dough for top crust Place onto filled pie. Trim 1/2-inch beyond edge. Fold top crust under bottom crust edge to seal. Crimp and flute edges. Cut slits in top crust or prick with fork to allow steam to escape.
5.	BAKE 60 to 65 minutes or until apples are tender and crust is golden brown. Cool completely on wire rack before serving. Store in refrigerator.

Fall and life

i know its fall outside! its cooler and the leaves are turning so many different pretty colors!!! if it could stay like this until spring and not snow i would be the happiest person you have ever seen! just getting over pneumonia too ! so not fun! still have a stuffy nose and a little cough, hoping it goes away ASAP.  doing laundry and waiting on all the kiddos to get here !  have a great day everyone!

its been so long.

well since i last posted i went home to florida and had the most amazing time with my family. i got to hang out with my sister and my nephew, that was the best part of it all. then got back to alaska didn't know i was pregnant until i was having a miscarriage. it never gets any easier. but i know everything happens for a reason and god had a plan. i am going to be moving back home as soon as my hubby gets a job there. know one but my family knows this. so i thought i would share for anyone that reads this thing! other than that just been so very homesick. and not sure how i feel about a lot of things anymore either.

i started watching a new little boy named matty he is oh so cute!!! i have been trying to get over a cold and i have a feeling i am trying to get another one!! not much going on other than all this. i want to go home now. i miss my mom. i miss my sister and nephew. i miss my dad. i miss my brothers.

home

isn't it crazy that as we grow up we say and do what we can to get out of there? the home town, the parents, the state. then as we grow into adults, all the family and the hometown doesn't seem so bad and we do what we can to get back there. sometimes things aren't as bad as they seem. i miss home. i miss my mom. i miss my dad. i miss my brothers. i miss my sister and nephew. i miss my friends. i miss the hometown. people never realize what they really have until its not longer at an arms reach. a hug from mom makes everything better. laughing with your brothers over nothing. its just the little things, but are so big when they aren't there...........i can't wait to go visit in 7 days. i need it more than i can even tell anyone.

coupons

well i have been coupon hunting !!! so far i have found alot of them. but if you know of any sites please share!
i use www.coupons.com and redplum.com !
thanks!

stress

i feel like i am losing my mind! stressing over money life and everything! i think i need a good scream i will feel so much better! how do you deal with stress please share! xoxoxox have a great day!